WELCOME LITTLE ONE

You're a GIRL !!

Oh my gosh i'm so excited. You should see the pink that's everywhere. You've got your daddy all in a whirlwind with it!

Before I forget, let me jot down some notes about labor with you.We went in at midnight on the 28th to be induced. I was 1 cm and 60% effaced when I showed up at the hospital. After 12 hours of natural laboring, I had them stick me with an epidural :) At hour 17, we were only 4 cm dialated and 90% effaced. You and I were both very tired and you started to become intolerable to the pitocin which made the doctors decide to stop the pitocin; and once they stopped the pitocin, all labor contractions stopped as well- meaning that you just weren't ready to come out, and even medicine wasn't going to make you! So, they decided to get you out by C-section. Overwhelmed from a lack of sleep, no food, and just being ready to meet you and know that you were a girl, sent tears down my face as I readied to meet my whole world.

You were delivered at 8:10 p.m.
6 lbs, 15 oz (which by the way they said you'd be 9 pounds at least since you weren't moving down in natural labor! ha weren't they wrong, you little thing you!)
19 inches (we knew you'd be a long one!)

Mom's blood pressure went crazy after delivery, and I had to be on magnesium for 48 hours (that stuff is harsh but we made it through)After 5 days in the hospital, we finally got to go home.

I wish I could have written all of these past 7 days but it just dawned on me that this would be a great idea; to chronicle the days of your life through my eyes and feelings; and later share it with you. Perhaps when you're pregnant yourself :)

My First Entry:

You lay next to me right now, arms straight up next to your head, fingers tucked into your preemie outfit (told you that you were tiny), hands clenched in which you make me want to yell "hoorah", which I have done on occasion because you look like you're shouting for joy. You squirm and wiggle, trying to find a comfortable spot in your boppy, and find some soothing from your binky.

You lay there, completely trusting that someone is going to take care of you, love you, and provide everything you need. Your full of innocence, trust, loyalty, ease, beauty, purity; all the things that only change through human nature as you get older. But right now, right this second, you have everything that most people have lost throughout their life because its not always an easy place, but it's one you adapt to; its one you will learn to be strong in, to have courage in, to trust in, to befriend in, and most of all to love in.

You already show signs of great strength, trust, and the ability to adapt to other people and different situations. Your middle name is suiting you well, as Victoria means victory and conqueror. As well as your first name Lillian, which means beauty, innocence, and purity. And my gosh, are you beautiful; you really are.

I love you.. It's time for mommy to put away your clean clothes :)